I don't know what I was thinking tonight...

I am not sure if I will actually pay to sign up for Match.com yet, but I filled out the bio tonight... it's like I'm practicing.

Would you call this an abuse of metaphors?
What does this even mean? 

At least a guy knows what I might like for dessert. 

I have not been on an actual date with a man in a long time. 

My apologies to any cool guys who may be trying to contact me on Match.com. I haven't joined yet, so I can't see your responses. Would anyone answer an ad like this one?  I could write dozens of ads, but they all just come out as weird as I am. Oh, and I just moved out of a million dollar home and into a custom stealth camper van full time to save some money and start my own business. 

I am the woman on stage singing as the star of the show, or the lady in black sitting in the corner at Starbucks wearing a headset working on learning video editing and other new software tutorials. Or I'm that chick swimming in the pool working on her graceful freestyle stroke wearing a swimsuit that says, "I'm a reality show," and a waterproof MP3 player listening to deep house funk or inspiring music, doing laps sometimes before the sun comes up. 

I don't really spend much time in clubs anymore unless I'm working as an event planner. I figure, I'll meet someone at work, the gym, a party or at one of my shows or events. Maybe going online is the best way to save time? Does Amazon Prime have a shopping cart to find amazing single or divorced men in their 40's, 50's or 60's?  

At my age, most all of the good ones are married and staying put in their relationships whether they are happy or not. I am not against getting married again, just not today.  I also don't want the charming booty calls from ex-boyfriends. I haven't gone there either. 

I think if I really felt like I needed someone to share my life with right now, I would hunt him down in the most adorable, creative, romantic ways and get him. Hunting is not my style, but you may have gathered by now, if you found me here from Match.com, this is more like "Fly Fishing".  A guy has to really show an interest in me if he wants to get my attention. There is a diferrence beween a want and a need. 

My nickname Tré (short for Tracy) means a couple things. It stands for "3" or "III" as in, "Three times as good", and "Very".  I am very something. Let's just say, I'm not a match for a man that owns a sweater vest.

I am happy in my really weird beautiful life,and with myself and I've been okay without someone for the past few years. I think my heart has survived this long because of my complete infatuation with nature and beauty in the world. 

Is it possible that it is no longer enough to sustain me? Am I longing for intimacy with a man?  Wait, did you just hear something?  I think my pussy just whispered, "yes." 😉  "Shut up down there."  

Maybe I am saving myself for someone worth loving for real, or just looking for a loyal fun friend to goof off with and if there is chemistry between us, and we both really dig each other, then we can mess up each others hair in creative ways and see where it leads us.  I'm not really looking for a boyfriend, but who knows what can happen.

How do young at heart weirdo's like me meet other single fun outgoing weirdo's?  The thought of shopping for a guy in an online store is so generic to me. I am not your normal everyday woman. It's so strange to try and write something like this, it's like a resume for mating. I think this is why I never sign up.

I am sure that my path will eventually cross with someone else's, who is being, loving and living his beautiful life in the same direction as mine out there.  

Ain't it better if we just bump into one another because we are already living the lives we love?  I think meeting someone whose life dreams are already going in the same direction as one another, is a sure fit for a deliciously fun life, don't you?  

I AM GETTING READY TO REALLY SHINE MY LIGHT SO YOU CAN FIND ME, WHOEVER YOU ARE OUT THERE. 💞 

Rest in peace my beloved Queen of Soul, Aretha Franklin...

I was so happy to see the great Aretha Franklin 3 years ago live at the Oakland Coliseum. Tonight I opened my little jazz set with the Barbary Jazz Quartet at the Comstock Saloon in North Beach district of San Francisco with a sexy jazz version of "Chain of Fools", in honor of my beloved Aretha Franklin, who passed away earlier this morning.

God Rest her precious soul. The lady gave me strength during some of my darkest days. 

She is the reason why they call me "Mama Tré" 
when I be singing the soul songs I do. 

It's because of her heart and SOUL that somehow bonded with mine. I am soft and heartfelt in my songs and also have a powerful big voice when I want to open the love from my heart.  I have a great capacity for giving and receiving love. This is why I must express myself creatively in the world. I once used all four of my vocal octaves when I was singing full time. I don't much anymore. I'm pretty rusty right now, but working on them. 

I am listening to her right now and honoring her amazing contribution to the world of real soul music. I LOVE YOU QUEEN OF SOUL. My personal favorite live performance, as a professional vocalist that I love the most, was when she was asked to fill in for Pavarotti last minute, when he was ill. 

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 May I one day shine as bright as even the shadow of you.

Cosmic defibrillator...

This morning was extra fun during my Aqua Zumba class at 24-hour fitness.  There is this one very old tiny lady named Annie. She is 86 years old. She wears a bright colored swimsuit and always has a smile on her face. Today's class was exceptional.

Aqua Zumba has awesome music and its super fun and high energy. It's like a Zumba dance class, but in the water. That's even better because you have less impact on your joints, but with the resistance of the water, it's an added benefit, plus if you are uncoordinated, no one can tell because you are in water up to your chest. : )  If you do it right, it will kick your ass, in a good way.  I work very hard in class three days a week, in the deeper end of the pool and secretly pretend I am a young Jane Fonda the entire time. (Have you seen her lately? Jane looks frigging gorgeous for her age.) 

Jane Fonda is 80 years old, I know right? Amazing.

Annie stays in the shallow end of the pool and is very chatty with the other sweet old ladies and tries her best to participate in class, but today Annie was amazing.  During class she sang every song in her full voice like it was karaoke.  I could not help myself but join in with her.  The entire class including the instructor did as well. We all had a total blast! 

Her joy was contagious.  Even with her little humped back and completely wrinkled body from head to toe, she shined like the most beautiful sun into each of our hearts.  

Your age inside is as young as YOU decide it will be. 

I feel like the universe is guiding me in the best ways.  After losing my house, my job, my car all within a four week period.  I was laid off by a company I really loved working at, and with people I really cared about.  Then a few weeks later I had double knee replacement surgery, the most unbelievably painful surgery and recovery of my life.  Being bed ridden and unable to walk for what felt like an eternity, I was literally helpless even go to the bathroom. Bed pans are the worst.  I was feeling pretty low, humiliated, and helpless.  Not once did I feel hopeless however. No one likes to have their ego and heart both knocked down in the dirt. 

My recent lack of confidence at times was daunting, but somehow, I kept my head high and knew I would win this fight.  The sweet hard working very kind nurses and the young handsome funny physical therapists that I was lucky enough to be my guys, are the reason why I have full flat and bendable range of motion in both of my knees.  My dear friends that came and visited me, let me stay with them and watched over me and kept me laughing and feeling loved certainly made all of the difference.

Running low on funds, and feeling the need for getting my independence back, I started doing research on YouTube for tips on the best ways to live in a van full time. I found a couple other beautiful trail blazing, shining stars out there, that somehow (like a cosmic defibrillator) reached across the continent and gave me that “Spark of fire” back that had gone out from taking such a beating from a full life smack down.

I am very grateful for my life and the beautiful other souls on this planet that are free to just express themselves and shine their bright lights out into the world. 

From the water and fire I emerge!

Between the healing waves of the Pacific Ocean, a chlorinated swimming pool and the powerful passion fire like the Sun that shines from the lights of others.

I AM BACK!
 MY CREATIVE HEART, VOICE, MIND, BODY 
AND SOUL ARE RECHARGED AND ON FIRE!  

It's time for me to shine again.  
I have cool creative new things cooking!

STAY TUNED!