sweet selfish chrysalis

I had no idea how fulfilling this van life style was going to be. Having the freedom to get away from the world when you just don’t want to be around people is truly a gift.  And then also being able to have a safe secret hide-a-way stealth bedroom, being parked right in the middle of where all the real action is also – ROCKS!

Convenience is a huge value to me in my life. I know myself well enough that if I want to change a habit or start something new and follow through with it until the end, it needs to be not too painful to make the changes consistently over time. Van life is giving me that.  It simplifies your life and allows you to be parked close to where you need to be.

I am more engaged in my life than ever before. It makes you get out and see the world. It makes you go visit people and do things you always wanted to, but just never could before because you were working your ass off somewhere to pay for a giant life that may have lost it's way.  Downsizing and simplifying my world is an easier way to live.  

I love you all out there on this planet. You know what a ridiculously generous heart I have and how much I love, giving love to you.  Today is my time. ME TIME!  I’m resting, nurturing, cleaning up my act, re-learning how to walk again, designing a creative business, taking my body, mind and soul to the edge of life and falling… IN LOVE WITH LIFE AND A NEW ME AGAIN. Sometimes we need a reboot to our system.

SO HERE I AM, IN LIVE RE-BOOTY ACTION LADIES & GENTS!

I’m feeling like I am falling off a cliff into the great unknown again. This time I am not afraid, I welcome the free fall and almost the impact coming my way. I’ve been here many times, but this time I am planning on where my impact happens and will land on my feet.

I AM IN CHARGE OF MY LIFE AND DESTINY.  I’m giving me a chance to get reacquainted. I am being utterly and unabashedly selfish right now.  It is truly a gift of time and attention that was long overdo.

When I love and accept myself, I am freed from the burden of needing you to accept me.

A kind of acceptance I may have never had before. A chance to build trust and kindness and earn the self-respect I forgot to give to me.  There is a lightness I am experiencing inside me and in my body. I feel like as I am laying here wrapped in these silk sheets inside my van, I am in a sweet selfish chrysalis.  I love new authentic experiences. I am becoming someone new, again.

The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, 

then I can change.

“Yoga is the journey of the Self, through the Self, to the Self.”

~ The Bhagavad Gita