Harbin Hipster Hot Springs 2015

20 years ago, I was one of 3 lead vocalists in a big 10 piece funk dance band.  Big management got us a three night gig to play at the Konocti Harbor Resort and Spa , the last night ending on New Years Eve.  The tickets were sold out months before the event.  I had never been up there before.  It's beautiful country up there in Lake county.

I was burning the candle on both ends working my corporate day job and then singing full time evenings and weekends.  I ended up getting a really sick and right before the big show weekend.  I did the show Thursday fine, and on Friday after that show, I lost my voice completely.  This was bad.  Our band came on after Chris Isaak and we had a producer coming for the weekend to check us out for a bigger tour.  I was really sick, so we called another vocalist to come up to sub for me.  This was no easy gig, I was the MCee, I sang the high parts on harmony, did costume changes and had choreography for each set she had to learn.

A friend of ours who came for the show was a hypnotherapist and did a session with me.  My unconscious mind said as long as I promised to sleep for 48 hours, it would let me have my voice back for the NYE show.  It was way too much for the vocal sub to learn on short notice.  The night arrived, and I still could not speak.  We ended up having me all dressed and ready to go for the show, as normal, doing all the moves, just not have my microphone on for the first couple songs.

All of a sudden, MY VOICE POPPED BACK IN.  I was able to sing, just not speak. It was amazing.  After we finished the show, a local Indian woman recommended I go up to a place called Harbin Hot Springs near by.  So, on new years day, my boyfriend and I found the place and we stayed for days, and I finally slept 48 hours and got well.  It's clothing optional, and an amazingly well cared for place.  Soaking in natural hot springs of pure Calistoga water will fix anyone.  I have been going up there ever since.

It has changed so much in the last 20 years.  The beautiful metal and wood work all around the pools. The new huge structures, the gardens, community and food options have grown.  It has become a popular hipster resort.  It used to be sort of a secret Marin-county-ite elder hippie hang, now you will see homeless young hairy freeloader types with backpacks filled with all of there belongings lined up along the curb and find them raiding your bags for food in the communal kitchen. 

It is now way too popular and over crowed even during the weekdays.  I just spent a few days there this week. This week must have been "Baby Week" at Harbin.  There were more screaming crying babies and kids than ever before.  There was no quiet sanctuary until after baby bedtime.   Weekends, it's a Gay meat market, and I am not complaining - THAT IS A BEAUTIFUL THING TO BEHOLD, but the energy there is just not like it used to be.  I only go during the week when I do go.

It's nice to share in the healing waters in a pool, but not so nice when the person next to you is Really Over-expressively enjoying the water by moaning, grunting, chanting and blowing there snot into the water when they go under in extreme ecstasy.  It's good, BUT NOT THAT GOOD.  There was a guy in the steam room who was obsessively exfoliating his feet with some kind of scrub while we were all just trying to sit and rest.  He was so oblivious to the others around him, it drove us out of there.  I was hoping for quiet time at Harbin.

I got up at 4:30am to get quiet time in the pools to meditate, it was amazing.  The stars and the Perseid meteor shower, were out bigger than ever up there.  Harbin is still a sacred place to some of us.  So much love has gone into the gardens and the new water features there.  I usually camp in my VW Bus, but I got a nice room with a shared bath this visit.  Here is the video of the waterfall fountain I enjoyed at sunset that was right next to my room:

I finally finished the book: The Power of Now, by Eckhart Tolle.  Being around such beauty in nature it made it easy to be IN THE NOW.  I had a hard time leaving, but as soon as I walked by the woman laying out on the deck with her legs spread wide for the sun to shine deep into her birth canal for us all to see, and then heard the kids fighting in the heart pool, I WAS FUCKING OUT OF THERE.

Maybe I need to read the book again. : )

The beautiful drive along Silverado Trail was wonderful. I grabbed lunch at one of my favorite little French Bistros on the way home, Bistro Jeanty. It's a lovely spot, great menu and service. I am grateful to be a native in the San Francisco bay area and so close to so much natural beauty, everywhere you go.  I do enjoy my solitude and did find some in the wee hours at Harbin.  Now to practice that solitude, Now..and now...and now.

9/21/15 HORRIBLE UPDATE:  

http://www.sfgate.com/news/article/Harbin-Hot-Springs-ravaged-by-Valley-Fire-6503417.php#photo-8629679

Some people still don't know the moon is actually made of cheese...

Have you ever wondered why no man on earth has ever walked on the surface of the moon except for the Apollo Missions- run solely by NASA with no other entity in the world to verify their authenticity?  

Why haven't we gone back to the moon in 43 years?  It makes you wonder if we ever did actually get there.

Isn't it strange that all of the original moon footage has gone missing? How fucking lame is that?  The most important feat of mankind and NASA loses or worse, tapes over the footage?  REALLY?  

Isn't it even more lame that the last man to walk on the moon, left his camera their by accident?

This video released by NASA about the Orion space exploration craft, shows a NASA scientist admitting that they still haven't worked out how to properly shield the spacecraft from the radiation emitted from the Van Allen belts.  

3:30 just in case you want to skip ahead. The NASA scientist freely admits, "We must solve these challenges BEFORE we send people through this region of space". Oops, didn't we already do this in 1969???? I guess not!?  "

..."We must solve these challenges before we send people through this region of space."    SERIOUSLY? 

The shielding that Apollo used to protect the astronauts was to shield us from the truth. 

And it worked! 

Here are some interesting in-depth looks at the "Moon Landing" photos.  What we were shown were most certainly shot in a studio.

NASA, Never A Straight Answer.
or just really bad liars.

It was this video of the astronauts "Caught staging a Fake Moon Shot", that really made me question the truth about if they ever actually landed on the moon.  Honestly, I believe THIS is how close they were able to get to the moon.  The rest of it was all a lie and it's been long enough now, that we are able to see the proof that NASA and the American Dream was and is nothing but a grand con and an illusion of smoke and mirrors to portray ourselves the best country in the world.

The Apollo Moon Landings are as believable as this...

The next story we can expect from NASA is the
"Coming ET Threat"
DON'T BUY THAT ONE EITHER.

The Elaborate Plan for Wisdom....

I am a non-conformist.  I really feel, breathe, laugh, think, cry, express, create, savor, fuck, live, love more fully and deeply than almost any person I know.  It's not easy being me.  I never stop exploring and learning.  I am angry and pissed off at life.  I am a truth seeker and the deeper I unravel this Reality, the angrier I become.  I’m angry that I chose to come here and do this thing – this life and don’t have a clue what I am doing here. The only thing that is consistent and stable in life, is change. I am really good at it.

I think maybe there is only one truth, that all that there is, IS EXPERIENCE.  That there is no right or wrong really, there is no time or space, that it is all just novelty, or cycles of experience, playing out in new forms over and over.  The problems come from trying to measure and label and contain reality. All that there is, IS EXPERIENCE, our experience as the experiencer.  That all of the data from our own experience is being uploaded into some limitless Akashic record and this is all that is.  Who created this interface of experience has been the ultimate puzzle.  The truth is, I CREATED IT FOR MYSELF. I AM CONSCIOUSNESS AND THAT IS ALL THAT THERE IS.  I am limitless. 

Knowing this truth is what makes living in this body and third dimensional holograph piss me off so much.  I feel limited here.  I’m angry and frustrated all the time.  I didn't know it would be so hard to live in a life with amnesia of who I REALLY AM.  When I do remember,  I feel so much more than my body can handle.  I cannot be confined to this system or the society or the rules and limitations put upon me by others who want to control the world. I CAN NOT BE CONTAINED. 

I think this has been the root of my life suffering here as Tracy. Why I have suffered so much with this physical body and the insane world we live in together.  I created this and I forgot I did.  I made myself forget who I WAS so I could have an authentic novel experience, but that separation from true Knowledge created so much suffering.   Well, I remember now, and I'm kicking my own ass.  So what if I changed my mind now that I am in it.  I'm mad at MYSELF for creating this and changing my mind while in it.  I feel shame at first that I don't like what I have created here.  Shame may not be the right word to describe this, WISDOM.  This is what wisdom is.  

If I just had the knowledge of all that is, that would not be enough.  I created these life interfaces to insert myself into them to have experience from my knowledge to obtain wisdom.  It's kind of an elaborate plan.  Why would I go through this much trouble for the sake of wisdom?

To sit with this kind of wisdom long enough I do remember.  "Wisdom is the very best well rounded and complete gift of Love you can give yourself.  Being able to receive it is the challenge.  : )"

A Mind Fucking Awesome One Month Challenge!

I challenge you to take 10 minutes for yourself every morning for 30 days and try this exercise out!  I did this program doing each "week" as a "day". 

This is an extraordinary program that will blow your mind at what you may find yourself writing down.  This program if you take it seriously, be honest and do it privately, may help you live a happier, healthier, bitchin' life.  

Sentence Completion I

Instructions for Sentence Completion Programs

Sentence completion is a technique I have developed in my clinical practice that can be used to facilitate self-understanding and personal growth. The essence of the sentence completion procedure is to start with an incomplete sentence, a “sentence stem,” and to keep adding different endings, between six and ten, with the sole requirement being that each ending be a grammatical completion of the sentence.

I use sentence completion in therapy, where clients complete sentences orally. I have also developed multi-week, written sentence-completion programs that can be done at home. In each week of a program, you are given a block of four to six stems. Every morning, you write completions for all the stems in this week’s block. At the end of the week, you reflect on your answers for the week and perform another completion exercise to help you solidify what you have learned. The next week, you move on to the next block of stems in the program.

Suppose the first stem in this week’s block is:  To me, self-responsibility means…
 
In the morning, before proceeding to the day’s business, write this down in a notebook or on the computer, then, as rapidly as possible, without pausing for reflection, write as many endings for that sentence as you can in two or three minutes – never less than six, and ten is enough. Do not worry if your endings are literally true or make sense or are “profound.” Write anything, but write something. 

After doing six to ten endings for the first stem, go on to the morning’s next stem, and continue until all the morning’s stems are finished.

When you are finished with the morning’s stems, proceed with your day’s business. Do this exercise every morning, Monday through Friday, before the start of the day’s business. Do not read what you wrote the day before. Naturally there will be many repetitions. But also, new endings are inevitable.
Sometime each weekend, reread what you have written for the week, reflect on it, and then write a minimum of six endings for this stem:

If any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I…

As with the weekday stems, the trick is to work as rapidly as possible, not pausing to “think,” inventing if you get stuck, without worrying if any particular ending is true, reasonable, or significant. Any ending is fine: Just keep going.

The next week, move onto the next block of stems in the program.

When doing sentence completions, the idea is to empty your mind of any expectations concerning what will happen or what is “supposed” to happen. Do not impose any demands on the situation. Try to empty your mind of anticipations. Do the exercise, go about your day’s activities, and merely notice any differences in how you feel or how you operate.

The art of doing sentence completion well is to maintain a high level of mental focus combined with a complete lack of internal censorship. Doing sentence completion on a daily basis as described here is a kind of psychological discipline, a spiritual practice, even, that over time achieves insight, integration, and spontaneous behavior change. People sometimes ask, “How do I integrate the things I am learning in sentence completion?” The answer is that practice itself, done repetitively, brings about the integration. The speed of your progress depends in part on the level of focus and consciousness you bring to the work, both while doing it and later when reviewing and reflecting on your endings.

Remember: Your endings must be a grammatical completion of the sentence, and if your mind goes absolutely empty, invent an ending, but do not allow yourself to stop with the thought that you cannot do this exercise.

An average session should not take longer than ten minutes. If it takes much longer, you are “thinking” (rehearsing, calculating) too much.

General program for improving self-esteem: This program is aimed at raising your self-esteem. It focuses on helping you to practice better what I have identified as the “six pillars of self-esteem”. These six practices lead to higher self-esteem and are described in detail in my book, “The Six Pillars Of Self-Esteem.”
 
Program for increasing self-responsibility: This program is designed to help you take more responsibility for for all areas of your life: your career, your personal relationships, your finances, your happiness. It is based on the belief that self-responsibility is an important source of personal power. The multiple meanings and applications of self-responsibility are explored in my book, “Taking Responsibility.”
 
Many other applications of the sentence-completion technique, some discussion of the thinking behind it, and other stems for other purposes may be found in my book, “The Art of Self-Discovery.” Full PDF HERE: http://happinesscounseling.com/The_Art_Of_Self_Discovery.pdf

Week 1

• If I bring more awareness to my life today…
• If I take more responsibility for my choices and actions today…
• If pay more attention to how I deal with people today…
• If I boost my energy level by 5 percent today…

Week 2

• If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my important relationships…
• If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my insecurities…
• If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my deepest needs and wants…
• If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my emotions…

Week 3

• If I treat listening as a creative act…
• If I notice how people are affected by the quality of my listening…
• If I bring more awareness to my dealings with people today…
• If I commit to dealing with people fairly and benevolently…

Week 4

• If I bring a higher level of self-esteem to my activities today…
• If I bring a higher level of self-esteem to my dealings with people today…
• If I am 5 percent more self-accepting today…
• If I am self-accepting even when I make mistakes…
• If I am self-accepting even when I feel confused and overwhelmed…

Week 5

• If I am more accepting of my body…
• If I deny and disown my body…
• If I deny or disown my conflicts…
• If I am more accepting of all the parts of me…

Week 6

• If I wanted to raise my self-esteem today, I could…
• If I am more accepting of my feelings…
• If I deny and disown my feelings…
• If I am more accepting of my thoughts…
• If I deny and disown my thoughts…

Week 7

• If I am more accepting of my fears…
• If I deny and disown my fears…
• If I were more accepting of my pain…
• If I deny and disown my pain…

Week 8

• If I am more accepting of my anger…
• If I deny and disown my anger…
• If I am more accepting of my sexuality…
• If I deny and disown my sexuality…

Week 9

• If I am more accepting of my excitement…
• If I deny and disown my excitement…
• If I am more accepting of my intelligence…
• If I deny and disown my intelligence…

Week 10

• Self-responsibility means…
• If I take 5 percent more responsibility for my life and well-being…
• If I avoid responsibility for my life and well-being…
• If I take 5 percent more responsibility for the attainment of my goals…
• If I avoid responsibility for the attainment of my goals…

Week 11

• If I take 5 percent more responsibility for the success of my relationships…
• Sometimes I keep myself passive when I…
• Sometimes I make myself helpless when I…
• I am becoming aware…

Week 12

• If I take 5 percent more responsibility for my standard of living…
• If I take 5 percent more responsibility for my choice of companions…
• If I take 5 percent more responsibility for my personal happiness…
• If I take 5 percent more responsibility for the level of my self-esteem…

Week 13

• Self-assertiveness means…
• If I lived 5 percent more assertively today…
• If I treat my thoughts and feelings with respect today…
• If I treat my wants with respect today…

Week 14

• If, when I was young, someone had told me my wants really mattered…
• If, when I was young, I had been taught to honor my own life…
• If I treat my life as unimportant…
• If I were willing to say yes when I want to say yes and no when I want to say no…
• If I were willing to let people hear the music inside me…
• If I were to express 5 percent more of who I am…

Week 15

• Living purposefully to me means…
• If I bring 5 percent more purposefulness into my life…
• If I operate 5 percent more purposefully at work…
• If I operate 5 percent more purposefully in my relationships…
• If I operate 5 percent more purposefully in marriage…

Week 16

• If I operate 5 percent more purposefully with my children…
• If I were 5 percent more purposeful about my deepest yearnings…
• If I take more responsibility for fulfilling my wants…
• If I make my happiness a conscious goal…

Week 17

• Integrity means…
• If I look at instances in which I find full integrity difficult…
• If I bring 5 percent more integrity into my life…
• If I bring 5 percent more integrity to my work…

Week 18

• If I bring 5 percent more integrity to my relationship…
• If I remain loyal to the values I believe are right…
• If I refuse to live by values I do not respect…
• If I treat my self-respect as a high priority…

Week 19

• If the child in me could speak, he/she would say…
• If the teenager I once was still exists inside of me…
• If my teenage self could speak, he/she would say…
• At the thought of reaching back to help my child self…
• At the thought of reaching back to help my teenage self…
• If I could make friends with my younger selves…

Week 20

• If my child self felt accepted by me…
• If my teenage self felt I was on his/her side…
• If my younger selves felt I had compassion for their struggles…
• If I could hold my child self in my arms…
• If I could hold my teenage self in my arms…
• If I had the courage and compassion to embrace and love my younger selves…

Week 21

• Sometimes my child self feels rejected by me when I…
• Sometimes my teenage self feel rejected by me when I…
• One of the things my child self needs from me and rarely gets…
• One of the things my teenage self needs from me and has not received is…
• One of the ways my child self gets back at me for rejecting him/her is…
• One of the ways my teenage self gets back at me for rejecting him/her is…

Week 22

• At the thought of giving my child self what he/she needs from me…
• At the thought of giving my teenage self what he/she needs from me…
• If my child self and I were to fall in love…
• If my teenage self and I were to fall in love…

Week 23

• If I accept that my child self may need time to learn to trust me…
• If I accept that my teenage self may need time to learn to trust me…
• As I come to understand that my child self and my teenage self are both part of me…
• I am becoming aware…

Week 24

• Sometimes when I am afraid, I…
• Sometimes when I am hurt, I…
• Sometimes when I am angry, I…
• An effective way to handle fear might be to…
• An effective way to handle hurt might be to…
• An effective way to handle anger might be to…

Week 25

• Sometimes when I am excited, I…
• Sometimes when I am aroused sexually, I…
• Sometimes when I experience strong feelings, I…
• If I make friends with my excitement…
• If I make friends with my sexuality…
• As I grow more comfortable with the full range of my emotions…

Week 26

• If I think about becoming better friends with my child self…
• If I think about becoming better friends with my teenage self…
• As my younger selves become more comfortable with me…
• As I create a safe space for my child self…
• As I create a safe space for my teenage self…

Week 27

• Mother gave me a view of myself as…
• Father gave me a view of myself as…
• Mother speaks through my voice when I tell myself…
• Father speaks through my voice when I tell myself…

Week 28

• If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my relationship with my mother…
• If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my relationship with my father…
• If I look at my mother and father realistically…
• If I reflect on the level of awareness I bring to my relationship with my mother…
• If I reflect on the level of awareness I bring to my relationship with my father…

Week 29

• At the thought of being free of Mother psychologically…
• At the thought of being free of Father psychologically…
• At the thought of belonging fully to myself…
• If my life really does belong to me…
• If I really am capable of independent survival…

Week 30

• If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my life…
• If I am 5 percent more self-accepting…
• If I bring 5 percent more self-responsibility to my life…
• If I operate 5 percent more self-assertively…
• If I live my life 5 percent more purposefully…
• If I bring 5 percent more integrity to my life…
• If I breathe deeply and allow myself to experience what self-esteem feels like…
  
  
  Nathaniel Branden Rocks!
  http://nathanielbranden.com/sentence-completion-i

Hey, did you know that Nate and Ayn Rand were shagging each other rotten once upon a time?  
Was she a selfish lover and dammed proud of it? lol.
 He wrote all about it...

http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/my-years-with-ayn-rand-nathaniel-branden/1102404639?ean=9780787945138

For more of Nate's awesomeness....

http://nathanielbranden.com/

"Fuck you God, I'm going to create my own heaven here on earth."

I had a great conversation with one amazing woman over the weekend. A woman who believes in God, but is not bitter about God not showing up for her in her life when she really needed it the most.  She just got sick of waiting for help.  She finally one day just said, "Fuck you God, I'm going to create my own heaven here on earth."  She recognizes the pure light and God within herself in a very personal way, and it has become a part of her identity. I LOVE THAT!!!!  

She just is not giving away her power, hope and energy to some imaginary force in the sky anymore.  She's not bitter, or heart broken like many atheists you meet, she is just taking her own life into her own hands and not giving away the credit.  She is grateful for her life, but she doesn't give her time or money away to the myth of some gory bleeding guy being tortured that people worship in hopes for some miracle that doesn't ever show up.  I see her teaching others how to create such interdependence and beauty through many artistic and musical mediums. 

She knows she is full of love, grace and goodness, SHE FEELS IT WITHIN HERSELF and she isn't getting any help or validation from outside.  She doesn't expect it anymore.  She struggles like we all do, but she has a strength and power inside her that I haven't seen in many others in my life. She has a faith in nature itself and when it all gets too overwhelming, she finds ways to connect her body, mind and spirit into nature and reboots her system and being.  I think THAT is a brilliant way to be and live.

I have been struggling with the magnitude of bullshit and brain washing that is going on in this world for centuries.  I have a keen nose for the "Mind Fuckers" in the world.  I have worked with, dated and know, Magicians, Magik-ians, Mentalists, Occultists, High I.Q. Gamblers, Illusionists, Remote Viewers, Meta-Psychologists, NLP Master Hypnotherapists, Psychic Mediums, Trained Healers, Reverse Speech Pathologists, High Functioning Sociopaths, High Corporate Marketing Gurus, "Consultants", Private and Forensic Investigators, overall con-men and woman, some I hold with great regard and respect depending on their own ethical or lack thereof standards with said skills.

Many were and are charming and charismatic, skilled in the fine art of persuasion and manipulation and started religions, cults, communities, governments and various organizations. It appears that these systems are designed to dis-empower a person to think for themselves and understand what self reliance and natural liberty actually is. IT'S ALL ABOUT THE LONG CON. The Long Confidence Trick working within our societies designed to create a subtle slave mentality that has slowly turned the world into easily programmable pawns to meet their greedy masters bidding without knowledge that they are doing so.

The realization of everyone (including me at one time) getting sucked into the mindset of believing in some bigger power or a system that is going to save us, protect us or help us, and it wasn't showing up or panning out to be what is said it was, was daunting and maddening.  It has been dis-empowering, giving my personal power away to some guardian I was told to believe in, or even some would die for. Having faith in myself was more useful than believing in some Higher Power to help me and my loved ones was stupid, especially one that was sleeping on the job. I WAS PISSED OFF AT MYSELF FOR BEING SUCH A CHUMP AND BUYING INTO THE PROGRAMMING. They start you at birth, it's been hard to deprogram myself.

I was suffering that my family wasn't ever there for me, and that the people I love the most do eventually die. It created a profound disappointment, and powerlessness, I felt rejected and sad.  When I finally woke up and took a step back and saw how insane the world is, it freaked me out a bit.  WELL FUCK THAT!  I want to be the purest expression of what I want God to be here for this last half of my life.  It takes balls and determination to create what my kind of heaven would be here.  I can take baby steps and can learn to just trust in and rely on myself more than ever before. I HAVE THAT SAME LIGHT, LOVE AND GRACE WITHIN ME TOO.

I know I am ballsy and I want to be ballsy enough to give a fuck when it really is worth it.  I have no problem not giving a fuck about the things that don’t really matter and standing up for things that I really give a fuck about.  I have most certainly called out and exposed people in positions of power that were manipulative and deceitful.  When con-artists who maneuver themselves into positions of power take advantage of the needy, lonely or helpless, I STAND UP AND CALL BULLSHIT. I want to do this for the whole world.  The actual truth is usually never written in history books.  I believe their is honor in standing up to the crowd and NOT GIVING A FUCK. 

THE REAL TRUTH USUALLY AIN'T PRETTY, AND STANDS UP ALL ON ITS OWN. 

The problem was, I wasn't doing that for myself.  I was beat up and still laying there on the ground trying to wrap my brain and heart around the absolute realization of loss.  THE PAIN AND SHOCK OF LOSS BITES.  I am still recovering from the loss of love, my mother & best friend, my life dreams, having a family of my own, my youth, and my ability to stay thin using herbal drugs to hide my wounds.  Life is fucking hard, I gotta get my ass up and get moving even if it hurts.  I see this amazing lady pick herself up and punching it out at life, IT IS AN INSPIRATION!

Life hurts dammit, so fucking what. I thought I would heal and get on with my life, well it's taking to fucking long and I'm running out of time.  I am getting the fuck up off my feet, wounds and all and I plan to slug it out and live my life more authentically and with less fear of losing people, things and dreams that I do really care about. 

Phase One: 
It’s hard not to sell everything I have and just start traveling the country living in a mobile minimalist lifestyle, write about my journeys and life lessons, expose the great con-artists of the world, sell wisdom, discover and unveil truth, and humor online as I go – and do it while I still am young enough to enjoy the process.  Take some high paying contract jobs, save a bunch of cash. Start a small business.

Phase Two: 
Turn my glamping event planning fun into an online business and live and create in a big funky warehouse, and be able to park my VW Leopard Lair Bus in my living room, and restore a vintage Airstream Travel Trailer in my den.  Camping stuff is just plain and ugly out there.  I must change ALL THAT!  

There are not enough high quality fun and functional, shiny, furry, glittery, solar, portable accessories on the market.  Even minimalists need good portable long lasting useful stuff, why not have style as well?  I am creating them. Years ago at an art car show in Santa Cruz, I saw photos of the plain fold-able  camping chairs next to my VW Bus from the show.   

Look at these two chairs.  Aren't they ugly next to my VW Bus?  Fuck Yea they are, and I did something about it.

They really bothered me.  So I covered them with fur.  I started with my furry camping chairs back in 2007, and people were buying them right at my art car shows.  I then started covering ice coolers to match. 

These chairs have saved many a weary partied out traveler over the years.
It's easy to spot YOUR CHAIR at a concert if it's covered in swanky soft fur.

There is so much more to glamorous camping, I can’t wait to share my stuff with the world.  But I have NO studio or workshop to work in currently.  

I'm fucking going crazy not having a creative space!

Supporting myself as an artist has been the tough part. I keep taking contract jobs to get through.  I am working on finding my creative space this year and move into it and really get to work on what I love - Designing, Creating, Manufacturing Fabulous Functional Portable Stuff for outdoor fun or for smaller minimalist living spaces.

Phase Three: 
I could turn my business into a non-profit corporation, partner up with like minded folks and buy some land and create my own collective community for artistic folks who need a place to stay at along their artistic travels and music tours, or even a retirement community for older creative folks to live and work at with very low overhead and not be alone and have fun stuff to do.  A place to support music programs, art programs.  A place where weird people–poets, misfits, writers, mystics…painters & troubadours, travelers can hook up a travel trailer or RV and stay awhile or even flop down a couple shipping containers and stay long term.  Low income housing for music and art teachers.

Phase Four: 
Run it as an event camping space.  Far enough away from whiny ass neighbors  where people can play amplified music well after 10:00pm, have alcohol, outdoor movies, a community kitchen, corporate team building activities. A great place for groups to hold their own music festivals and big annual camp outs.  THIS IS WHERE I AM GOING.

I am very lucky to be surrounded by amazing, self-aware, self-made, strong and wise woman in my life.  They give me hope and the fire to succeed!

THANK YOU LADIES FOR BEING IN MY LIFE.