There have been several times in my life where I had such
profound glimpses into my own future that I felt I was actually there
witnessing what was happening from a separate viewpoint. I mean, I was watching what was happening to
me from a crowd.
It’s happened a few times to me, the most profound time I can remember was when I walked out onto the football field for the first time as a freshman in high school on a bright sunny day back in 1977. I stood in one spot and looked up at the stadium stands and suddenly it was dark, there was a stage and I was standing there under a spotlight being crowned homecoming queen. I felt all of the emotions, but was shocked to see what I was seeing WAS ME up there. I stopped for a second and said to myself, “No Way”.
I didn’t even know what that celebration was since I came from the 8th grade. I looked around and the bleachers were full of people. This was not some fantasy or dreaming thing, this was so real that I literally felt like I was there. Then suddenly I was back at school and it was a sunny day. I brushed it off as some weird thing. The intensity of the experience stayed with me for a long time.
4 years later that very experience actually happened. I was crowned homecoming queen just like in the vision. I looked down into the crowd to see if I was standing there. I didn’t see myself. It was exactly like the vision I had experienced years before except I was standing on the stage being crowned.
This happened again to me in 1985. I had just finished my day shift at a job in Sausalito. It was sunset and I was walking up the hill to my car and suddenly it was a bright sunny morning and I was standing in front of an old white haired woman. She had her face turned away from me as she was talking about the garden in her front yard.
I saw the side of her face she looked familiar and then I looked at her body and she was old and thin, she had long white hair all pulled up, she must have been at least 75 + years old. She looked like she was living in a beautiful home, standing in her long steep driveway. I looked again and could recognize her voice. IT WAS ME! Oh my God, I was seeing myself as an old woman. I was beautiful, and I looked healthy. I really stopped in my tracks and did a huge double take. That was me? Wow!
This was not some profound celebration or anything like the vision I had before. It was just a glimpse of me in my future again. I took a step back to catch my breath, and then it was sunset again and I was looking up the hill to get to my car. I remember sitting there for a long time. It made me feel like I had a long life ahead of me. At the age of 23 one doesn’t really think that is a big deal. It was this very same year I started to go by Tré instead of Tracy. At that time in my life, I felt sure that I would not live past the age of 30. Don’t ask me why, but I never thought I would live very long in this life until I saw this vision of myself. Why did I get to see myself like this?
It’s happened a few times to me, the most profound time I can remember was when I walked out onto the football field for the first time as a freshman in high school on a bright sunny day back in 1977. I stood in one spot and looked up at the stadium stands and suddenly it was dark, there was a stage and I was standing there under a spotlight being crowned homecoming queen. I felt all of the emotions, but was shocked to see what I was seeing WAS ME up there. I stopped for a second and said to myself, “No Way”.
I didn’t even know what that celebration was since I came from the 8th grade. I looked around and the bleachers were full of people. This was not some fantasy or dreaming thing, this was so real that I literally felt like I was there. Then suddenly I was back at school and it was a sunny day. I brushed it off as some weird thing. The intensity of the experience stayed with me for a long time.
4 years later that very experience actually happened. I was crowned homecoming queen just like in the vision. I looked down into the crowd to see if I was standing there. I didn’t see myself. It was exactly like the vision I had experienced years before except I was standing on the stage being crowned.
This happened again to me in 1985. I had just finished my day shift at a job in Sausalito. It was sunset and I was walking up the hill to my car and suddenly it was a bright sunny morning and I was standing in front of an old white haired woman. She had her face turned away from me as she was talking about the garden in her front yard.
I saw the side of her face she looked familiar and then I looked at her body and she was old and thin, she had long white hair all pulled up, she must have been at least 75 + years old. She looked like she was living in a beautiful home, standing in her long steep driveway. I looked again and could recognize her voice. IT WAS ME! Oh my God, I was seeing myself as an old woman. I was beautiful, and I looked healthy. I really stopped in my tracks and did a huge double take. That was me? Wow!
This was not some profound celebration or anything like the vision I had before. It was just a glimpse of me in my future again. I took a step back to catch my breath, and then it was sunset again and I was looking up the hill to get to my car. I remember sitting there for a long time. It made me feel like I had a long life ahead of me. At the age of 23 one doesn’t really think that is a big deal. It was this very same year I started to go by Tré instead of Tracy. At that time in my life, I felt sure that I would not live past the age of 30. Don’t ask me why, but I never thought I would live very long in this life until I saw this vision of myself. Why did I get to see myself like this?
I didn’t know it at the time, but I think I do today. Who would have thought that in the years to come that I would have a serious eating disorder? Or that later I would suffer a head, neck and back injury and then have difficulty standing and walking and find myself overweight and living in physical pain? So much pain and suffering that there were times I would consider ending my life? There were times that I resented that vision because I didn’t want to live that long. But seeing myself happy and healthy and what looked like in balance has given me comfort during my darkest days.
I haven’t had any visions of my life since then. I’m only in my early 50’s, I have a ways to go and apparently still a long life ahead of me. So apparently I make some good decisions in my near future since I end up there. That sure is a mind fucker ain't it?
I think my highest divine self has been nice enough to give me some helpful hints along the way. These visions or time slips, have really helped me along my path. I just wish I could do one on purpose.
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