I have been on a life long journey of spiritual awakening. If you know me personally, you will have noticed huge changes in every part of me over the past 20 years.
This Urban Nomadic Free Range Full Time Van living phase of my life has been like living in a "Steel Cocoon". It cut 75% of the stress I was living in by giving me financial freedom, solitude, simplicity, variety, epic scenery and a sense of long needed energetic recharging and quiet time for self reflection and healing.
This COVID-19 quarantine lock down has accelerated this process for me and it's been intense, amazing, heart breaking, and awesomely enlightening, but this was only after the first couple months of crazy freakishly fear laden anxiety induced booze and THC & CBD filled days and nights alone trying to cope with loneliness and the entire world in uncertainty.
I have been asking my guides, ancestors and what I call my "Love Team" who watch over me - (It's mostly My Highest Self) for help everyday. They have been seriously responsive and sending me quick help when I need it most.
I have been lead to several guides, and coaches, yet was lead to this one adorable teacher who had similar childhood wounding and traumas and went through her own self healing personal transformation and spiritual awakening.
If you are struggling with yourself, stuck, in need of change, healing and profoundly helpful wisdom. If you are looking for real honest practical teaching to support your time during this world wide insanity.
Instead of watching reruns of bullshit that is no longer helping you forget your miserable existence, I recommend watching some of the lessons from Christina Lopes, DPT, MPH here...
You are not alone my friends. I love ya'll and as we bravely take steps forward along our souls journeys, I send you virtual hugs, kisses and MUCH LOVE. XxxOoo III
In this time of lock down, I have had the chance to study and explore so many things I wanted too. I found it high time that I understand the nature of relationships, so that I may one day be good at them. This video below has helped me understand many of the powerful
connections I have had in my life. It is an honor to pass these truths along so you may
benefit from and learn how to navigate your life experience with greater ease
and understanding.
SEVEN ESSENE MIRRORS
First mirror- what we feel at the moment-pain,anger
Second mirror- what we judge
Third mirror- what is lost, taken away from us, or what we gave away
Fourth mirror- most forgotten love
Fifth mirror- Father/ Mother
Sixth mirror- quest in darkness, light and dark part of the soul
Seventh mirror -Self perception This is some seriously deep good shit. This video is long, but very worth it.
The Seven Essene Mirrors explained by Gregg Braden.
Please look beyond the mullet...
THE 1ST AND 2ND ESSENE MIRRORS OF RELATIONSHIPS:
FIRST MIRROR: shows my presence in the moment…
what we reflect by others in the moment. What we are radiating in the moment.
SECOND MIRROR: similar quality, but more subtle:
mirrors to us that which we judge in the moment.
When we find that many people show us the same pattern of
anger or fear, they may be showing us an internal truth about ourselves in the
moment.
Example: Multiple new relationships appear within the
same month: PAY ATTENTION because there is something valuable to learn within
the network of those relationships.
Look at the people you hold most dear. Look at the
qualities that really push your buttons the most. Ask yourself:
“Are they showing you what you are in the moment?”
If you can honestly answer with a “no” then ask yourself:
“Are they showing you what you judge in the moment?”
UNDERSTANDING THE INNER TECHNOLOGY OF EMOTION. THE 3RD
AND 4TH ESSENE MIRRORS
3RD ESSENE MYSTERY/MIRROR OF RELATIONSHIP: the mirror we
sense every time we find ourselves in the presence of a person who, when we
look in their eyes you feel an electric charge.
Through the Course of our lives, we give away or lose
parts of ourselves. When we come to find ourselves in the presence of another
individual who embodies what we have lost, we will feel it as a magnetic
connection to that person. Ask yourself “ What is it that I see in this person
that I may have lost or given away, or that was taken from me at some point in
my life?”
“We will seek to reinforce that which we have lost, given
away, or had taken away”
4TH ESSENE MYSTERY/MIRROR OF RELATIONSHIP:
This one has a bit of a different quality. Through the
course of our lives often we will adopt certain patterns of behavior that
become so important to us that we will rearrange the rest of our lives to
accommodate this pattern or behavior. When we find ourselves in this situation,
we find that these patterns may be compulsive or addictive patterns of
behavior. The 4th Mirror allows us to see ourselves in the presence of
addiction or compulsion. Through addiction and compulsion, we give away little
by little the things that are most important to us. And in this giving away, we
have the opportunity to see ourselves as we lose the things we hold most dear.
The most common addictions that come to our minds are
usually Alcohol, Nicotine, or Drugs. Issues of control. Addictions to sex. Need
for money, to create money/abundance. Etc.
The patterns unfold gradually over time. We give away
what is most important to us over time. We may recognize the pattern at any time
& find our wholeness in healing. Rather than the opposite of taking the
addiction to its extreme.
THE 5TH ESSENE MIRROR:
This one is perhaps the single most powerful pattern.
Through this mirror, we can see more and understand to a greater level why
we’ve lived the lives we live. It is the mirror that our parents showed us
through the course of our childhood lives with them. Through this mirror we are
asked to allow for the possibility, to entertain the possibility that perhaps
the actions of our parents toward us are mirroring our beliefs and expectations
of what may be the most sacred relationship we’ll ever know in our lifetime:
The relationship between us and our Heavenly Mother & Father. It is through
this relationship with our earthly parents that our parents are showing us
ourselves in that expectation and belief of that Divine relationship.
For example: If we find ourselves in a relationship with
our parents where we feel judged, constantly. Or that we feel our best is never
good enough. There is a HIGH probability that what is being mirrored is our
belief within ourselves that we may not be good enough. Or that we may not have
accomplished that which may have been expected of us.
It’s a very powerful yet subtle mirror. Through our
perceptions of ourselves and our creator, it may tell us more about why we’ve
lived our lives as we have than any other.
If you feel something inside of you welling up that says
“NO WAY,” you’ve likely encountered something that could be really powerful.
The only way you’ll have a response is when you are being shown something that
is so deep you may have chosen to avert looking at it in the past.
(In the video attached Gregg Braden walks you through a
written exercise where you write down positive and negative words to describe
your parents or the people who mostly raised you when you were a child)
There is a good possibility that the words (positive
& negative) you use to describe your parents have very little to do with
those you call Mom and Dad. With those words, what you are describing is a
mirror. This is the mirror your parents have held to you of the most sacred
relationship you will experience. The way you see your Mother and Father.
THE SIXTH ESSENE MIRROR: Ominous name: The Dark
Night of The Soul
We are constantly reminded that life & nature have a
propensity toward balance. It takes an extremely skillful and masterful being
to upset the balance in nature and in our lives. When we find ourselves in the
greatest challenges of life, it is in these moments that we have amassed each
tool that will allow us to move through that challenge with grace and with ease.
Until those tools are amassed, we will never see ourselves in the situations
that ask us to demonstrate these high levels of mastery.
From this perspective, the greatest challenges of life
may be viewed as tremendous opportunities to demonstrate this mastery, rather
than tests that may be passed or failed in life.
It is through this mirror that we see ourselves naked.
Without the emotions, feelings, thoughts, and constructs around us that we have
constructed around us to keep us safe.
We have the opportunity to see ourselves in a completely
transparent way and to prove to ourselves that the process of life may be
trusted.
This mirror is an opportunity to lose everything we’ve
held dear in life and see ourselves truly naked as we came. As we climb out of
the abyss that is left after the loss of everything we held dear, and we see
ourselves in a new way; this is where we find ourselves our Highest levels of
Master.
THE 7TH ESSENE MIRROR:
This one is the most subtle. It asks us to allow for the
possibility that each experience of life, regardless of the outcome, is perfect
in its nature. Regardless of whether or not we achieve the lofty goals that
have been set by others, we are invited to view our accomplishments in life
without comparing them to anything else. Without any external reference. The
only way we can view ourselves in failure or success is when we measure our
accomplishments to an external yardstick.
These questions then arise in us, What is it that we hold
ourselves accountable to? What do we use as our yardstick of accomplishment?
From the perspective of this 7th mirror, we are asked to allow for the
possibility that all aspects of our lives (each aspect of our personal life:
body shape, body weight, academic, business, athletic, spiritual achievements)
are perfect as they stand. We can only be judged when they are compared to an
external reference.
Allow for perfection in the imperfections of life.
What standards are we holding ourselves which cause us to
feel unhappy?
How do I come to determine when I have succeeded or
failed at something in life?
The Essene’s remind us that we will go through each
of these mirrors through this life. Sometimes multiple times and sometimes
multiple mirrors at a time.We are
invited to know ourselves in the presence of others through our relationships.
As those relationships are reconciled, we become the benefit of that healing.
It is that benefit that we carry with us through life as we walk between the
worlds of Heaven & Earth.
Last weekend, I had a conversation with a friend and I was sort
of stunned by the words that came out of my mouth when I was describing the why of what I am doing, in making such huge life and career changes, behind the scenes.They asked me, “Aren’t
you concerned what people will think of you?”
I said, “Hell
no, at my age, I don’t give a fuck anymore about that.”
I kinda do, (there is this new whole crazy social media thang to try and manage) but I really don't worry about being my authentic self and sharing me with ya'll anymore. I'm the director of my life, and I can fix that un-useful shit in the post edits!
I am a little bit scared of doing this all by myself as I
get started, but I know as I shine my light out into the world, MY TRIBE OF LIKE-MINDED
SOULS WILL FIND ME AND BE A PART OF THIS FUN ENDEAVOR.
Meanwhile, it’s all about getting my self taught crash course “Van-life
style MBA” and the REFINED FINAL 'ONE SHEET', making decisions on what will bring value to you and how to give this
to you in the funniest, sweetest, most effective and delicious ways.
For the astrologers: I am heading toward my North Node in Leo in the 10th House - MC in Cancer.
This showed
up in my Inbox this morning:
From Survive to Thrive
Written by Peggy Sealfon
What matters is living life
fearlessly from your authentic self by embracing happiness and love. You have
an option in every moment. You can suffer—from worries, stress and anxieties
that are woven into the fabric of everyday life—or choose empowerment.
Breathe deeply, dance wildly, sing
to the sparrows or indulge in hilarious laughter. Take brief respites from your
endless list of tasks and drop into stillness. The spacious silence is a
profound place to reawaken your intuition, creativity and life force.
Instead of reacting from a jumble of
emotions, develop inner calmness and shift from survive to thrive! Even
in the face of mundane disturbances — irritating traffic, an annoying boss, a
cantankerous child—release all struggles and relax with what is.
You cannot change circumstances; you
can only control your response to them.
Rather than worrying about playing
life’s roles perfectly—whether the ultimate wife, mother, sister, daughter,
employer or employee — focus on being the absolute best person, tapping into
your power center and your infiniteness. Practice unconditional love and open
the floodgates to bathe yourself and everyone around you in an ocean of harmony
and tranquility.
Don’t defer happiness to another day
in the future when you expect external elements to align. You are not your
possessions, bank account, wardrobe or even your thoughts. You are an infinite
being full of light, ingenuity and potential. Uncover the place of inner
contentment today. It’s there. If you don’t see it, you’re too busy. Slow down
and simplify.
Enjoy modest tasks, the chores of
life. They sustain the present and are the pearls. Don’t look back and regret
that you were too distracted to appreciate your first job, the early years of
marriage, your toddlers. Be totally engaged in the moments of your life. Take
time for hugs and kisses. Feel the warmth of running water as you do dishes.
Revel in the clean fragrance of freshly laundered towels as you fold them.
Enjoy the accomplishment of finishing a work assignment even if it pushed you
to your edge.
Be grateful for your strengths and
accept your weaknesses. You are not lacking or missing anything. Value yourself
and be confident in all that you are. The more you access your true self —
accepting who you are — the more you have to give to others. You cannot give to
others what is not flowing through you.
Let go of judgments of bad or good.
Everything that happens contributes to personal growth and takes you further on
your evolutionary path.Take time to
renew and refuel yourself by appreciating earth’s bounty. Consume organic
produce rich in vitamins, fiber and minerals and feel the nourishment and
fortification that optimize performance and health. Stroll into nature and be
awed by the magnificence of sunrises and sunsets. Experience the tingling of
energetic vibrations in body, mind, heart and soul.
Surrender to divine energy, a
universal force, and enter the domain of grace. Life’s magic happens when you
bring body and mind into an ecstatically integrated state of being where you
realize your highest potential and flow effortlessly in the light of consciousness filled with abundant joy and love.
I CAN DIG IT PEGGY. You ROCK!
Did she say, "Tingling of
energetic vibrations in body, mind, heart and soul?" WHERE DO I SIGN UP FOR THAT? : )
I guess I'm old enough to not give a shit about making a fool of myself and boldly trying something silly, new and beautiful.
If I can make a living at it? Yep, I'll gladly try.
If I have the hope and possibility of Great Love for Reals, then Yep, I'll gladly risk a broken heart for the chance.
LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO NOT LIVE IT, AND FAIL AT IT, if I fail, I'll do it boldly, with style and heart, and I will Learn from it. I will get back up on my feet, brush myself off and go for it again.
You will get the benefit of learning from my mistakes.
It's NEVER TOO LATE to reinvent yourself.
It's a new year, a friggin New Decade! KEEP YOUR EYE ON THE PRIZE AND MOVE FORWARD. It's good to be old enough to not give a fuck, and trust yourself. GET OUT THERE AND GET YOUR SUCCESS ON YA'LL!
