I have been a student of astrology for the past 30 + years. It has helped me along my path to accept myself, especially the scary icky dark shadow parts. Looking at where Saturn is in your natal chart and the aspects surrounding it have been an ass kicker for me, yet enlightening. I have found this to be true in paying close attention to Saturn square Saturn transits that happen every 7 years, when Saturn returns and then also when Saturn goes retrograde.
If you have been following me along my journey, I survived my brutal Saturn square Saturn transit last year in 2018, and came out with a newfound deep respect for Saturn and the lessons he taught me. I paid for my own Karmic Hell Fire, learned my lessons the hard way and have worked very hard to clean up my life inside and out. It gave me a clarity and a full life cleansing that I needed to create a solid foundation to build a secure future upon.
Saturn is a sobering experience and dreadfully serious, but necessary. It makes you reevaluate what the fuck you are doing, why, and then it gives you a chance to re-choose your life direction and who you want to share it with. (Look at your North Node for this) When you stand in your honest authentic truth and take the steps toward your true life direction, doors open. Amazing people enter your world that change you, help you learn your self worth and value.
You haven’t seen much of me this year because I am working my booty off re-inventing myself behind the scenes. I am creating a new career that feeds my passion and soul. I changed my physical body 100% so I could live pain-free. I am half the size I was in 2015, but twice as happy, full of energy and now I am grounded and fully engaged in being present in the Now.
For a girl who spent most of her life not being “In her body” and mostly in my Brain (Sagittarius Sun in the 3rd house of Gemini) = Major Mercurially Minded. Being fully associated in my body in present time, is a profound change for me. I am sensual, sensitive and yet grounded now in a way I have never known before. It’s like I still have training wheels on with my personal rig and need someone to teach me all that I have been missing and show me how it's done.
I am new to the dating scene and little shy about it. I am hopeful. I want to explore all of the possibilities of my new found presence and sensual Being-ness with a loving, eager, stable, fun, emotionally available, loyal, teacher and friend. I want yummy schooling with someone I can trust.
I want Love. I have sooooo much Love to give. I am sure there is someone out there with the same sort of self-awareness and presence that is capable of equal loving reciprocation. We will be both the student and teacher… The sensual laboratory, if you will… "Meta & Physical Research"... I am taking applications. 😉 Email me here to apply.
I have wasted too much of my life stuck in my head, not feeling all of the wonderland that is in my body and physical senses, I don't want to live another moment not fully appreciating ALL the life has to offer, now that I can in this new profoundly new way. I know this sounds weird, but I really do feel like a new person today. I AM.
The way I see it is, I am lucky if I have 40 years left to live in my life span as it stands. The next 20 of these years, I am going to make the best of my life. I will do my best to make this a reality, considering my age, current good health and energy level. I don't have ANY time to waste on bullshit. I have decided to make every second of my life count from here on out. HOW ABOUT YOU? This is why I listen to Saturn's teachings so intently now.
I want Love. I have sooooo much Love to give. I am sure there is someone out there with the same sort of self-awareness and presence that is capable of equal loving reciprocation. We will be both the student and teacher… The sensual laboratory, if you will… "Meta & Physical Research"... I am taking applications. 😉 Email me here to apply.
I have wasted too much of my life stuck in my head, not feeling all of the wonderland that is in my body and physical senses, I don't want to live another moment not fully appreciating ALL the life has to offer, now that I can in this new profoundly new way. I know this sounds weird, but I really do feel like a new person today. I AM.
The way I see it is, I am lucky if I have 40 years left to live in my life span as it stands. The next 20 of these years, I am going to make the best of my life. I will do my best to make this a reality, considering my age, current good health and energy level. I don't have ANY time to waste on bullshit. I have decided to make every second of my life count from here on out. HOW ABOUT YOU? This is why I listen to Saturn's teachings so intently now.
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SATURN RETROGRADE 2019 DATES
Saturn appears retrograde in Capricorn from April 30th 2019 to September 18th 2019, between 20 and 13 degrees of the zodiac sign. We have from Spring and throughout Summer to revise our Saturnian structures, to see what needs improving.
Saturn is the strict disciplinarian of the planets and makes his way through a sign for about 3 years, and in the process, he works it. With Saturn currently passing through CAPRICORN (since December 19th, 2017) the area governed by Capricorn for you personally will undergo a steady upgrade, with added responsibilities and a dash of discipline. You’ll learn limitations and boundaries in a certain facet of life and by the end of his tour feel upgraded and far more mature.
LISTEN TO THIS FOR BETTER EXPLANATIONS: The Timelines Are Sealing Sept 2019 - Are You Where You Want to Be? She is kind of extreme, but she has many good points to consider.
On September 14th, Saturn Goes Direct...
When Saturn turns to dole out his rewards of your hard work and integrity (Good Karma) or unresolved fears, self-deception, bullshit and fuckery, (Bad Karma) upon your ass, this will determine the next 12 years in this new cycle for you.
Jupiter is also involved in this huge event! YOU HAVE A CHANCE TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW LIKE NEVER BEFORE!
If you are in a job you hate, a lonely relationship or have not made peace with yourself about anything that may be holding you back from your full potential, if you feel stuck or too scared to leave any of these situations. GET OUT OF THESE ASAP! Decide to change. Or renegotiate and make a real brand new start with who you are with or where you are at. Call back your spirit and start living in your passion and joy again. Some of these may take a little time to wrap up, but decide on what you want NOW during this transit. IT IS VERY POWERFUL.
If you don't, your chances of staying stuck and trapped in the pain and bullshit will be extra difficult to get out of for the next 12 years. If you do, Saturn will help give you the building blocks and help you start a new chapter in your life for the better.
Saturn in Capricorn is about the duties and privileges—as well as the privilege of duty—that we face in an area of life. During this transit, we may be slowly stretched to inhabit a more mature, rounded understanding of this part of our chart. Inevitably, this may include meeting our personal limits, re-negotiating boundaries, or facing stiff denials. Seriousness and steadfastness are the order of the day, while any residual immaturity or desire to shirk off our responsibilities will be meet with stern rebukes during Saturn’s transit in Capricorn.
When Saturn turns to dole out his rewards of your hard work and integrity (Good Karma) or unresolved fears, self-deception, bullshit and fuckery, (Bad Karma) upon your ass, this will determine the next 12 years in this new cycle for you.
Jupiter is also involved in this huge event! YOU HAVE A CHANCE TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW LIKE NEVER BEFORE!
If you are in a job you hate, a lonely relationship or have not made peace with yourself about anything that may be holding you back from your full potential, if you feel stuck or too scared to leave any of these situations. GET OUT OF THESE ASAP! Decide to change. Or renegotiate and make a real brand new start with who you are with or where you are at. Call back your spirit and start living in your passion and joy again. Some of these may take a little time to wrap up, but decide on what you want NOW during this transit. IT IS VERY POWERFUL.
If you don't, your chances of staying stuck and trapped in the pain and bullshit will be extra difficult to get out of for the next 12 years. If you do, Saturn will help give you the building blocks and help you start a new chapter in your life for the better.
Saturn in Capricorn is about the duties and privileges—as well as the privilege of duty—that we face in an area of life. During this transit, we may be slowly stretched to inhabit a more mature, rounded understanding of this part of our chart. Inevitably, this may include meeting our personal limits, re-negotiating boundaries, or facing stiff denials. Seriousness and steadfastness are the order of the day, while any residual immaturity or desire to shirk off our responsibilities will be meet with stern rebukes during Saturn’s transit in Capricorn.
Although the lessons often feel harsh with Saturn and his transits (some even refer to him as the ‘Lord of Karma’), ultimately, he is a fair teacher. Saturn’s pressurizing manner is generally less intense during its retrograde transits; with some of the heat off, we may feel more enabled to face the challenges of these transits with new eyes. Saturn retrograde in Capricorn may have all of us particularly focused on meeting exacting standards and acting with integrity.
In this direct phase you put into practice what you have learned. The outlook is much brighter and suggests that the Saturn retrograde lessons have been well learned. I hope Saturn rewards you with a rich happy new beginning that brings you what your heart and dreams have always longed for... INTO REALITY NOW.
I like this article for a clear explanation.
Saturn Retrograde 2019: Clearing the Past By Jill Wintersteen
On Monday, April 29th, Saturn the planet of karma, responsibility and life lessons begins its four-month backward stint in our sky. Not to worry, Saturn Retrograde is nothing to panic over. It is not nearly as intense as Mercury Retrograde and won’t send our e-mail servers crashing down. Saturn Retrograde is a good thing. It slows down the pace of our lives just enough so we can reorganize and reassess our commitments.
Let's start by first understanding what happens when a planet is retrograde. Saturn takes about 29 years to orbit the Sun, that’s a lot longer than Earth, which means we pass it every year. When we are “catching up” to Saturn, it appears to be moving backward. Much like when a train passes a slower train. It’s not actually moving backward; it just appears that way. Saturn is retrograde for 4.5 months every year. This year it stations direct September 18th.
Saturn creates and governs the rules and regulations we live by as a society. It reminds us of our responsibilities to ourselves, our life, and to others. It also teaches us our hard life lessons and helps us work out our karma in various ways. Karma is energetic attachment, it’s neither positive or negative- it’s just energy we are “stuck” with until we work it out. For example, if we were not so kind to someone in a past relationship, our energy stays attached to that situation until we can detach it by making amends to the person or by learning how to resolve the issue through another relationship.
Karma does not necessarily need to be worked out with the person involved in the initial attachment, but with the resulting energy left within us. Once we work out our karmic attachments, we are free to evolve energetically. This, of course, can take lifetimes and is the reasoning behind reincarnations. We reincarnate into a form because of our karmic attachments. Essentially this life is all about detaching and clearing our karmic past as much as possible.
Saturn Retrograde slows things down a bit so we can reevaluate our life, including our karma. It gives us time to understand the deeper meaning of why we might attract the same circumstance repeatedly. It also brings our karma to the surface. We may find during Saturn Retrograde our past karma comes back so we may understand it in efforts to clear it from our energy. It’s all positive though! We want to work out as much karma as we can in this lifetime, so we are free to evolve. According to Hindu philosophy, the goal of each lifetime is to get a little closer to reaching enlightenment. The only way to do this is by clearing our karma.
Whether you believe in past lives or karma, over the next four months, pay attention to situations that feel familiar. They may be the same type of guy appearing in several “different” boyfriends, or you may find yourself in a similar situation again and again with different people. You’ll know karma when you see it. When you do recognize it, slow down and look for the place where healing is needed. Give space and attention to the part of you that needs healing and do what is necessary to detach from the energy. Work with release exercises through journaling and cleansing rituals.
Awareness is key here. Once you become aware, you are on the road to detachment. On an Earthlier level, Saturn Retrograde gives us the time to re-evaluate our commitments. Saturn is now stationed in Capricorn. Both are hardworking, diligent energies, ready to motivate us to new heights. Saturn drives us to do our best work and work hard. It reminds us that no mountain is too high with the right effort and determination. Saturn is always driving us forward to reach new levels in our career, motivating us past our mental roadblocks, and strengthening our ability to discipline ourselves. Remember, Saturn Retrograde gives us a time to pause and re-evaluate our long-term commitments. Are your resounding yeses still resounding? Saturn Retrograde is a great time to change directions or get out of situations in which we feel trapped.
Charging ahead is wonderful, but we want to reaffirm we are on the right path for us. With this energy of reassessment, Saturn Retrograde is a great time to define our boundaries. Learn to say No to what is not meant for your energy. If something is not helping evolve our energy, we must learn to walk away and detach, so we are free to evolve in a different direction. Often, we say yes because we are afraid of saying No. Saturn Retrograde teaches us to clearly define what is acceptable and what is not in our life, so we can spend our energy on what really matters to our soul. Use this period to become clear about what you are allowing into your life and energetic field. If you don’t want something, or someone, figure out the karma that brought it to you. Learn the lesson of why you called it in the first place, then let it go.
Here’s a little checklist of things to think about while Saturn retro whack-a-moles us:
- Define your boundaries
- Re-evaluate your commitments, especially time commitments (Saturn rules time)
- Re-organize your systems (including routines/disciplines- is that yoga schedule really working for you?)
- Keep yourself motivated- Retrograde can make us feel tired, inspire yourself with new activities.
- Get to the root of your karmic attachments- This will probably take more than one cycle of retrograde, but you need to start somewhere.
- Finally, don’t fear this retrograde. These are all good things! Slow down a bit and use the time to assure yourself that you are on the right track.
- Adjust where you need to and continue with what you want. Your energy will appreciate the confirmation, and you will be able to attract more of what you want after you give it the Saturn stamp of approval.
How will this affect you? Look to your Sun and Rising sign:
When Saturn appears retro it’s an opportune moment to take stock, and re-structure your interests. There could be some hard work to ‘redo’, more lessons to learn and structures to ‘fix up’. Here’s how it might play out for your zodiac sign… Interpretations by Kimberly Peta Dewhirst
Aries or Aries Rising
Saturn has been helping you get serious about your ambitions and has also helped you step up to the plate in a public capacity. Perhaps you’ve climbed the ladder a rung or two, or simply become more prominent (even famous) in your field – or perhaps this is what’s coming in the next couple of years, Aries…With Saturn Retrograde you could be in for a few lessons around your position in the world – think about your career, or what you’re most known for, as this is the area due to receive more restructuring. There could be some hard knocks for you now in this area, as you work that bit harder to achieve the same results. Think of career progress made since December 2017 and revisit those great strides, ready to drill down your strategy.
Taurus or Taurus Rising
With Saturn in Capricorn you’ve been getting serious about an exciting venture that means the world. You’ve been more able to broadcast your message and truth, sharing your knowledge, embarking on an adventure of higher learning or even traveling further afield in the pursuit of a global education. This is perhaps what’s on the cards for you these next few years Taurus! It’s been a favorable time for growth and international liaisons, and whatever your area of study or passion, you’re now urged to slow down. Until September, gently put the proper structures in place to help your venture thrive – know you’ll step into a position of more authority in years to come and that what you’re learning now is well worth it. Learn what you need to; get the necessary experience to ensure you’ve the best outlook possible, and while Saturn is retrograde ensure you’re following the right stream of interest.
Gemini or Gemini Rising
Saturn has been making his way steadily through your horoscope in the area of resources, finances, mergers and property. This is the ‘consummation’ area of the chart where you invest, and make real a serious commitment, perhaps a legal or financially binding agreement that’s permanent. If the 7th house is where you meet and marry, the 8th is where you get down and dirty and have sex – this is the house akin to Scorpio, after all! On your agenda for the coming years is a ‘coming together’, to pool assets with a partner, pay off your own debt, or empower yourself in some way. This is also the house of death and transformation, so there may be some stark news or reality with hard Saturn passing through this area of the chart. With Saturn now making an about turn these themes could get a wee bit skewed. Take lots of pauses to review loans or the borrowing of money and any legal contracts you’re signing. It will be far easier to progress with your commitments in September, with Saturn moving ahead in this, the most intimate area of your chart.
Cancer or Cancer Rising
Saturn has been urging you to get serious in partnership since December 2017, helping you face others with realism. Relationships might have seemed hard work recently, and perhaps people you’re involved with have seemed cold or distant – a Saturnian vibe – or unable to give as much as you’d like, dealing with their own problems. You might be now taking partnerships in love or business way more seriously. Conversely, it could be other persons taking more responsibility for you, acting ‘the parent’. You’re closer than ever to knowing what you want in your collaborations, and who is the reliable +1 to invite to party. Saturn Retrograde prompts you to review how you deal one-on-one, without getting over sensitive, Crab cake. While this isn’t a time to rush into new commitments (and that goes for business collaborations too), you can heartily reassess where you stand, and evaluate the future duo you’d like – get serious about what you want and don’t be afraid to shoot for the stars – you deserve it!
Leo or Leo Rising
Serious Saturn has been passing through your health and wellness zone, Leo, focusing on routine matters and day-to-day tasks! Ask yourself now – how well is your schedule and diet serving you?
With Saturn now retrograde in the everyday area this encompasses where you go on a daily basis – your workplace or office. Over the summer months you can streamline, restructure and improve work matters, your job and fitness. The daily grind might get quite hard with disciplined Saturn dragging ass through this area of your horoscope, but hold on till September when relief is due.
Virgo or Virgo Rising
You’ve had wet-weekend Saturn trudging through your fun and romance sector since December 2017, Virgo, which has been prompting you to treat your intense passions more seriously. Your creative zone is getting Saturn’s stringent eye – so you might now be taking hobbies and interests to new levels, turning what you love into a more practical endeavor. Saturn’s allowing your talents to become a more serious part of your world. While love hasn’t been off the agenda it might have meant you got more serious about who stole your heart… Or you might have fallen for someone more mature! Either way you’ve been given a reality check, as the stern, stoic planet entered and set-up camp in the most playful area of your ‘scope. Saturn moving back through this area slows you down even more, so dating might seem harder to schedule and make time for. But this is in fact an incredibly positive time to review your approach to pleasure and who might make you smile – single Virgo’s can restructure their approach to finding Mr.(or Miss) Right, while coupled up Maidens can think more about what makes them authentically happy.
Libra or Libra Rising
Saturn has been restructuring your ‘family house’, your domestic set-up and home, or even your ‘work fam’, the surroundings that are your cosy nest, as well as how you gain emotional stability, Libra. You’ve likely been exploring your heritage and roots, and family patterns over Christmas and into 2019, with resulting changes to your personal life and where you reside. It’s now time to see that your ideas about family are true to you, realistic and worthy of future commitments. Revisit ideas around home that you’ve built since December 2017 – this could include how you see yourself living together with others, and how you gain emotional stability. If you’re looking to buy a house (or move) it might be way easier after September.
Scorpio or Scorpio Rising
You’ve had the planet of discipline touring your communication zone since late December 2017, bringing you an upgrade in the way you think and connect. You might have some hard knocks with peers or in conversation – from local neighbors – at home, school or in the office, the ‘siblings’ surrounding you or literally your brothers and sisters. Spring and summer offer you the chance to see that the lessons you’ve learned are being put to good use – writing, communicating and networking in your closest circles. Revisit the notes from your course and ensure you’re using the skills you’ve worked hard to pick up!
Sagittarius or Sagittarius Rising
Saturn has been working his way over your financials, tightening up your responsibilities as far as money matters go. Since December 2017 money might have seemed scarce, or simply you may have been aware of a feeling that comes with the “not enough to go round” – hardship vibes. Still, with Saturn’s tour of your material assets, done right you’ll be a far better position in years to come, and his tour will pay off handsomely. This interim period of spring-summer is all about looking at your finances and possessions to evaluate where you stand – realistically. Be responsible with personal savings and what you’ve earned; it’s about boundaries with your purse and spending. Look after your things Sagg!
Capricorn or Capricorn Rising
Capricorn, you have had Saturn in your sign since December 2017, which could feel rather comforting – your planet returning home to roost, propping you up in your rightful position of responsibility! No doubt you’ve stepped into a sense of personal duty, or seen projects, plans and personal goals come into focus. Now it’s time to slow down and see that your initial plans are stable.
Take stock; this is an amazing time to stop and ensure firm personal boundaries are in place just for you! While it’s important not to ride yourself too hard it’s possible you’re embracing this sense of self-discipline – check you’re testing yourself in the right ways. You might like to give yourself a health check (especially your bones and teeth), since Saturn governs the structural side of life and is passing through your most physical ‘self’ by planetary transit.
You might have lost weight since Saturn entered your sign late 2017 – be sure you’re getting enough joy and nourishment during this time. Saturn ain’t half hard. This is most important for Capricorns born early in the sign – late December birthdays!
Aquarius or Aquarius Rising
Saturn is one of your rulers (with Uranus), so with this planet in retrograde motion you could be feeling the pull to retreat and re-evaluate more acutely than most. Now inhabiting the area of closure and dreams, you might be resealing the holds of your ship, ensuring they’re watertight and that no man (or woman) can permeate the strong hold. It’s an excellent time to quit unwanted habits for you Aquarius! To surrender around ongoing plans or long-term strategies! This (the 12th house) is very much an unconscious, inward place for this planet to be transiting, you have three years to heal and work on important transitions and closure. You’ll be embracing heavy duty responsibilities in years to come, so use the summer to consider what needs to go in a major life transformation.
Pisces and Pisces Rising
Saturn has been hanging out in your wider networks and friendships zone since Christmas 2017, overhauling group dynamics and aligning you with an upgraded community with shared beliefs. You might even encounter powerful player in your circle or leverage some great connections! Saturn in Capricorn might also be manifested in particular authority figures in the wider world – a boss or colleague, family member or wise elder. With Saturn in this area of your horoscope you might want to re-envision your squad – what does your dream team really look like my fishy friend? Who are the associates you want to surround yourself and how best can you relate to them?
