Broken compass

ANYONE CAN CHANGE, REALLY CHANGE.  IT STARTS WITH NOW.  IT STARTS WITH KNOWING WHAT YOU WANT, AND THEN CREATING THAT.  But what if when you get to where you know you are supposed to be and you decide to not go there?

I drive an art car this year that has Garden Gnomes that are flipping the bird, and giving "Bare Ass" to passers by.  I call it "Celebrating the Riff Raff of the Magical Kingdom", on wheels.  It's not as nice as the "Squirly Whirly Art Car", it's got an edge, it's naughty, bawdy and sort of pissed off.  It's saying something.

I realized today what it is saying.  I am saying to the drivers who see the car, QUESTION REALITY.  SNAP OUT OF THE CURRENT STATE YOU ARE IN HERE DRIVING IN TRAFFIC AND LIGHTEN UP. When I see people start to laugh, I can hear Monty Python in my head saying, "And now for something totally different."  It's so off the wall, it's funny seeing people's reactions.  The Gnome are adorable and hysterical.  It's rolling sarcasm and sure comes in handy when someone cuts me off on the road.

I AM ALSO GIVING FATE & DESTINY THE FINGER. I AM SAYING FUCK YOU TO EGO, TO REDUNDANCY, TO HISTORY REPEATING ITSELF.  My Gnaughty Gnomes are cute, and very bad boys because they are following their path, the path they know that is right, but once they get to the precipice to choose:

1) To do the same thing as everyone else, history, ancestry, lineage or the establishment rulership requires, the culture or what society says you must do. I SAY NO. THE SILLY GNOMES SAY HELL NO, WE ARE GOING TO CREATE SOMETHING ELSE, SOMETHING NEW.  The Gnomes are saying, Fuck this system - let's go create our own thing.

2) They also are saying fuck you to the Ego, that non-stop voice in your head that NEVER has good advice or direction for you in your choice making.  Never believe anything that you say to yourself (Ego) when you are alone, sad or angry.  This is good advice.  Flip your Ego the Bird and know that usually, the Truth is the very opposite of what the Ego is telling you.  

You have a choice.  I think The Source of all life that is within us, really gets a kick out of novelty. When nature creates a new cell that mutates into something more fantastic and cool or writes a new genome.  We get to choose our own story no matter what destiny or fate try to push us towards.  This is not for the faint of heart. It takes balls to be bold enough to follow your heart's path all the way to the very second of crossing that line, and then turning a hard right or left instead.  WHY KEEP REPEATING THE SAME STORIES, ARCHETYPES, AND MYTHS?  Why keep remaking the same music or movies or traditions?  BORING!!!!!!

I always wanted love, a safe place to fall and home.  I wanted to be proud of my place in the world, physically and spiritually.  These have been eluding me for as long as I have lived so far.  I learned along my path that if I hang on too tight or push my will too hard, I mess it up. My ego is something to not take seriously.  Following my heart always felt right, but it was so broken from the start that it was like a broken compass.

I am rebel enough in my soul to create something truly new.

I used to really think I was broken, or that just because I had broken parents and a broken upbringing, that it made me somehow damaged. That was never true.  The Truth is, I did have a rough start and have shortcomings as a result, but I developed other qualities in my Being to make up for what was needed.  As a result today, I am much more capable than many I encounter in life.  I am not part of "The Herd."  What once was a broken compass, became an unnecessary crutch and reminder that I must trust my own self and way.

They say that when wounds heal, a scar is formed that makes it stronger than before.  Letting go of my broken compass has given me freedom to create something truly new and my scars give me strength to do it.  I live on instinct in the moment. I'm navigating my way.  I don't trust much in this low vibrational world, but I do know we can choose how we want to be, do and what we want to be remembered for after we leave this place.

It is hard to know if you are making the right decisions. It can be really a challenge to discern in your heart what is the next best steps in which direction to go.  THIS IS WHAT MAKES THE RIDE, A GREAT RIDE!  We are on the ride folks, and it's whatever you want it to be.  

Personally, I get it. I am a lover of the classics. I do melt with tenderness at the sight of true authentic raw human beauty.  It's hard not to return to the things that are great to re-experience. This is my love of jazz standards. Creating a new Genre is needed.  The genre of something that may be worth repeating that has not been created before.  This is how we heal ourselves and evolve to a better and more interesting place.

It sometimes can look like the Riff Raff at first glance, because the first steps to actually creating something novel and inventing something that has NEVER BEEN CREATED BEFORE, it takes breaking from the pack, the herd and trusting yourself.  It takes saying fuck you to everything you were taught as truth, and bolding going out and finding your own.

Leonard Cohen said in Anthem, "There is a crack in everything,That's how the light gets in."  

Let your light shine through your cracks until it burns away all of the programming of the thousands and thousands of years. CREATE SOMETHING NEW AND BEAUTIFUL SO IT RINGS THE BELLS THAT RESONATE WITH THE TRUE LIGHT SOURCE OF THAT WHICH YOU ARE.  Say fuck you to the old stories and write something NEW, something that is actually worth the ride.  

If you find yourself sitting at a traffic light, and glance up at the SUV in front of you and it has ridiculous Gnomes glued to it and a sign that says... 

You could be getting punked by drunken garden gnomes.

...then you may be in that moment experiencing something way out of the normally of everyday life. It may make you say WHF, or laugh or just snap you out of the state you were in, and experience something NEW in that moment.  GO OUT AND CREATE AND FIND WHAT SNAPS YOU OUT OF THE TRANCE YOU ARE IN AND TAKE A DAY, A WEEK OR A YEAR AND DISCOVER SOMETHING NEW OR GO CREATE IT FOR YOURSELF AND OTHERS TO ENJOY. It's a great way to live. Just to be left alone to create on our own without rulers or slaves, kings or queens or a hierarchy.

Anarchy is not chaos even though it can look like it when long overdue change happens at first. Many believe that without rules there's chaos, and there is chaos in the world, but not all bad comes from it.  We also find Art, Hope, Love and Dreams. The world is remembering how to find the joy of creating new true novelty by trusting in themselves and finding balance.

Anarchy is living in a paradigm that has no slaves or masters - true free will. Rules and being ruled also has stifled and almost killed off true creativity in this world.  Without real freedom to create something new, we do not evolve forward as we were intended.  This ride becomes a prison and as dull as the limited masters that try to convince us that they rule over any of us.  Say goodbye to the Hierarchy. YOU ARE FREE.  THERE IS NO SCRIPT, OR FATE OR DESTINY. YOU ARE WHAT YOU DECIDE. Imagine what you would create if you knew you could design anything without living with so many rules and limitations?   

You are a sovereign Being at the precipice of change. I dare you to do one thing you have never done before at least once a day, and see what happens as you begin to remember what it means to really be alive and enjoy it!