"Fuck you God, I'm going to create my own heaven here on earth."

I had a great conversation with one amazing woman over the weekend. A woman who believes in God, but is not bitter about God not showing up for her in her life when she really needed it the most.  She just got sick of waiting for help.  She finally one day just said, "Fuck you God, I'm going to create my own heaven here on earth."  She recognizes the pure light and God within herself in a very personal way, and it has become a part of her identity. I LOVE THAT!!!!  

She just is not giving away her power, hope and energy to some imaginary force in the sky anymore.  She's not bitter, or heart broken like many atheists you meet, she is just taking her own life into her own hands and not giving away the credit.  She is grateful for her life, but she doesn't give her time or money away to the myth of some gory bleeding guy being tortured that people worship in hopes for some miracle that doesn't ever show up.  I see her teaching others how to create such interdependence and beauty through many artistic and musical mediums. 

She knows she is full of love, grace and goodness, SHE FEELS IT WITHIN HERSELF and she isn't getting any help or validation from outside.  She doesn't expect it anymore.  She struggles like we all do, but she has a strength and power inside her that I haven't seen in many others in my life. She has a faith in nature itself and when it all gets too overwhelming, she finds ways to connect her body, mind and spirit into nature and reboots her system and being.  I think THAT is a brilliant way to be and live.

I have been struggling with the magnitude of bullshit and brain washing that is going on in this world for centuries.  I have a keen nose for the "Mind Fuckers" in the world.  I have worked with, dated and know, Magicians, Magik-ians, Mentalists, Occultists, High I.Q. Gamblers, Illusionists, Remote Viewers, Meta-Psychologists, NLP Master Hypnotherapists, Psychic Mediums, Trained Healers, Reverse Speech Pathologists, High Functioning Sociopaths, High Corporate Marketing Gurus, "Consultants", Private and Forensic Investigators, overall con-men and woman, some I hold with great regard and respect depending on their own ethical or lack thereof standards with said skills.

Many were and are charming and charismatic, skilled in the fine art of persuasion and manipulation and started religions, cults, communities, governments and various organizations. It appears that these systems are designed to dis-empower a person to think for themselves and understand what self reliance and natural liberty actually is. IT'S ALL ABOUT THE LONG CON. The Long Confidence Trick working within our societies designed to create a subtle slave mentality that has slowly turned the world into easily programmable pawns to meet their greedy masters bidding without knowledge that they are doing so.

The realization of everyone (including me at one time) getting sucked into the mindset of believing in some bigger power or a system that is going to save us, protect us or help us, and it wasn't showing up or panning out to be what is said it was, was daunting and maddening.  It has been dis-empowering, giving my personal power away to some guardian I was told to believe in, or even some would die for. Having faith in myself was more useful than believing in some Higher Power to help me and my loved ones was stupid, especially one that was sleeping on the job. I WAS PISSED OFF AT MYSELF FOR BEING SUCH A CHUMP AND BUYING INTO THE PROGRAMMING. They start you at birth, it's been hard to deprogram myself.

I was suffering that my family wasn't ever there for me, and that the people I love the most do eventually die. It created a profound disappointment, and powerlessness, I felt rejected and sad.  When I finally woke up and took a step back and saw how insane the world is, it freaked me out a bit.  WELL FUCK THAT!  I want to be the purest expression of what I want God to be here for this last half of my life.  It takes balls and determination to create what my kind of heaven would be here.  I can take baby steps and can learn to just trust in and rely on myself more than ever before. I HAVE THAT SAME LIGHT, LOVE AND GRACE WITHIN ME TOO.

I know I am ballsy and I want to be ballsy enough to give a fuck when it really is worth it.  I have no problem not giving a fuck about the things that don’t really matter and standing up for things that I really give a fuck about.  I have most certainly called out and exposed people in positions of power that were manipulative and deceitful.  When con-artists who maneuver themselves into positions of power take advantage of the needy, lonely or helpless, I STAND UP AND CALL BULLSHIT. I want to do this for the whole world.  The actual truth is usually never written in history books.  I believe their is honor in standing up to the crowd and NOT GIVING A FUCK. 

THE REAL TRUTH USUALLY AIN'T PRETTY, AND STANDS UP ALL ON ITS OWN. 

The problem was, I wasn't doing that for myself.  I was beat up and still laying there on the ground trying to wrap my brain and heart around the absolute realization of loss.  THE PAIN AND SHOCK OF LOSS BITES.  I am still recovering from the loss of love, my mother & best friend, my life dreams, having a family of my own, my youth, and my ability to stay thin using herbal drugs to hide my wounds.  Life is fucking hard, I gotta get my ass up and get moving even if it hurts.  I see this amazing lady pick herself up and punching it out at life, IT IS AN INSPIRATION!

Life hurts dammit, so fucking what. I thought I would heal and get on with my life, well it's taking to fucking long and I'm running out of time.  I am getting the fuck up off my feet, wounds and all and I plan to slug it out and live my life more authentically and with less fear of losing people, things and dreams that I do really care about. 

Phase One: 
It’s hard not to sell everything I have and just start traveling the country living in a mobile minimalist lifestyle, write about my journeys and life lessons, expose the great con-artists of the world, sell wisdom, discover and unveil truth, and humor online as I go – and do it while I still am young enough to enjoy the process.  Take some high paying contract jobs, save a bunch of cash. Start a small business.

Phase Two: 
Turn my glamping event planning fun into an online business and live and create in a big funky warehouse, and be able to park my VW Leopard Lair Bus in my living room, and restore a vintage Airstream Travel Trailer in my den.  Camping stuff is just plain and ugly out there.  I must change ALL THAT!  

There are not enough high quality fun and functional, shiny, furry, glittery, solar, portable accessories on the market.  Even minimalists need good portable long lasting useful stuff, why not have style as well?  I am creating them. Years ago at an art car show in Santa Cruz, I saw photos of the plain fold-able  camping chairs next to my VW Bus from the show.   

Look at these two chairs.  Aren't they ugly next to my VW Bus?  Fuck Yea they are, and I did something about it.

They really bothered me.  So I covered them with fur.  I started with my furry camping chairs back in 2007, and people were buying them right at my art car shows.  I then started covering ice coolers to match. 

These chairs have saved many a weary partied out traveler over the years.
It's easy to spot YOUR CHAIR at a concert if it's covered in swanky soft fur.

There is so much more to glamorous camping, I can’t wait to share my stuff with the world.  But I have NO studio or workshop to work in currently.  

I'm fucking going crazy not having a creative space!

Supporting myself as an artist has been the tough part. I keep taking contract jobs to get through.  I am working on finding my creative space this year and move into it and really get to work on what I love - Designing, Creating, Manufacturing Fabulous Functional Portable Stuff for outdoor fun or for smaller minimalist living spaces.

Phase Three: 
I could turn my business into a non-profit corporation, partner up with like minded folks and buy some land and create my own collective community for artistic folks who need a place to stay at along their artistic travels and music tours, or even a retirement community for older creative folks to live and work at with very low overhead and not be alone and have fun stuff to do.  A place to support music programs, art programs.  A place where weird people–poets, misfits, writers, mystics…painters & troubadours, travelers can hook up a travel trailer or RV and stay awhile or even flop down a couple shipping containers and stay long term.  Low income housing for music and art teachers.

Phase Four: 
Run it as an event camping space.  Far enough away from whiny ass neighbors  where people can play amplified music well after 10:00pm, have alcohol, outdoor movies, a community kitchen, corporate team building activities. A great place for groups to hold their own music festivals and big annual camp outs.  THIS IS WHERE I AM GOING.

I am very lucky to be surrounded by amazing, self-aware, self-made, strong and wise woman in my life.  They give me hope and the fire to succeed!

THANK YOU LADIES FOR BEING IN MY LIFE.

Practical Anarchy...

Happy New Year World!

I have never been very good at public speaking or teaching so far, but that is about to change. 

“Natural Liberty, Awakening the new Counter Culture, Free Range Living and Empowering the Heart of Humanity one Smile at a time,” is my lifes work and plan.

We are not sticking it to the man, we are simply divorcing "The Man." 

Serving “The Man” divorce papers and getting on with our own lives. 

Anarchy is a passionate endeavor, but we need a solid practical plan that can be applied to daily living.

I am writing one that I think will make a difference.